i dun wanna be ALONE~!!!..

Friday, December 02, 2005
8:13 PM

Everything's back to square one. I'm back with him. I'm just over the moon. Haha.. Well, certain things happened. I'm gonna say just what happened.. to those who are interested. To those who aint.. you may just try skipping the next paragraph. =)

I'm gonna make it short for I may just rattle on and you guys are gonna get freaking bored. Well, actually.. truth is.. I never forgot him. My friends knew it but I always denied. Like.. I just wanted to hate him. So as to forget him. I tried many means and ways. I forced myself into the perspective that I darn hated him.. But I knew he was still in my heart. I never admitted it. Unltil.. a few days before.. when I was sort of unaware of what I was saying and stuffs. lol. I said everything that was in my heart. And well.. I guess.. it was just meant to be. I used to assume many things. And he did as well. But oh well.. Assumptions are a bunch of bullshit! All I know is that I've loved him since I-dunno-when and now, he's back. We're together again.. and this time.. it feels much better. Muackx. I love him.. lots..

Hmmm.. I'm now over at his house. His dad just bought "breakfast"for me. I ain't that hungry actually. But well, I'm gonna force it down my throat. haha. Well, it's for my own good anyway. I'd have gastric if I don't eat it. He's sleeping soundly. He was working night-shift yesterday.. so like ya.. I won't bother him.

I was like.. trying to find a job. Oh well, I wonder where I should work at. I wanna do sales.. if it is possible. Damn. My dad and mum are now in favour of me working. They used to decline my offer of sharing the burden with them.. for they felt I was still young and was not supposed to be stressed up over $$ issues. But well, I know it ain't easy for them. And now that I have the chance to support myself.. it makes me feel pretty good. I feel bad about taking their money all the time. It's not like.. they don't give me enough and all.. it's just that.. I feel bad spending their hard-earned money like nobody's business. It's time I feel the hardships they felt while working.

I love Pei Fen. She's such a great friend. And so is Kenneth. I've had conflicts with them before. But oh well.. What's past is past. What matters is the present as well as the future. As long as I feel happy now, it doesn't matter what happened before. I feel great being with them. And that is all that matters.

Oh well, life has never been better for me. I love my family. I love him. I love my friends. And I love his family as well. =) Life is just soo great. =)))

`Sobing In a lil Corner..